hun, i know exactly what you mean about waiting for AF to arrive and how stressful it can be.
Remember though stress CAN make you late so often the more you worry the longer it may be.

Can you maybe speak with your Dr, find a pill that has a lower dosage or something, discuss other contraceptives that may work better for you based on your concerns?

Personally i was off the pill for a yr due to 'abnormal' bleeding during my cycle, i didn't fall pregnant until i had been off it for over 10mths and we stupidly were not exactly being careful, but everyone is different.

Also i see you have a DD Lily Ava.. my DD1 is Ava Lily