Thank you both for replying Emmasn I would love to join your thread as I think I just need constant kicks in the butt.

Mr Squidipa- thank you. It's really hard admitting you have let things get out of control and I have wardrobe full of beautiful clothes that don't fit me!!! I will drink that water and I'm also going to cut out all biscuits from now on! It's just so hard sometimes to remember how good it felt being thin as I just feel so horrible about myself at the moment!