Hi J. I totally understand as I was there too - 1kg off being obese. I really didn't realise it, and even though I have now lost a lot of the weight I still feel the same as always - just that bit podgy. The only think I notice that changes is my perception of how skinny/heavy other people are, or photos of me. But you can lose the weight if you want to. One of the most important things to realise about changing your eating and exercise habits is that you don't have to be good all of the time. I often have all night work sessions, or celebrations and I can be really bad with my eating. But I don't let it go for too many days before I rein myself in again. I think that is the key. When you have a sick kid or something else the priority goes to that. Then you get back on the wagon. Although eating well definitely helps with the stress of other situations too. Getting into some exercise that you actually enjoy (as opposed to exercise you only do to lose weight) helps an awful lot as well as the focus is on the fun of it and not just on the results you get for your waistline.
I know how you feel. Although I wasn't really overweight when younger, I was when I left high school. I lost 10kgs then, to be my lightest weight at about 60kg, but only for a few years when I had my first m/c. I was comfortable at 60kg (ish) though and very happy with myself for the first time ever. I have steadily been putting weight on since I was about 20. About 6ish kg per pg (or m/c) actually. Though after DS, I have been getting fatter and fatter. I just can't focus and lose this weight. I hate looking int he mirror. I have never had the greatest self esteem but now it's non existent. I don't know why I can't lose weight. I think of it every day, just about everything that goes into my mouth, I'm thinking about if I should or shouldn't eat it. I have a terrible relationship with food, my body, eating. I hate feeling like this and you'd think it would be enough to make me find the motivation and will to lose weight. Plus DH has agreed to have another baby after almost 2yrs of my nagging him, but only if I lose at least 15kg, so I am able to handle the pg better. More motivation. Besides just being healthy to run around with my kids and being healthy for myself. Still just haven't managed to find the oomph I need. So deflating when I try, lose 5kgs, then just end up back where I started, or fatter.
Sorry for the woe is me post, didn't mean to take over! But I know what you're saying!
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I know how you feel. Although I wasn't really overweight when younger, I was when I left high school. I lost 10kgs then, to be my lightest weight at about 60kg, but only for a few years when I had my first m/c. I was comfortable at 60kg (ish) though and very happy with myself for the first time ever. I have steadily been putting weight on since I was about 20. About 6ish kg per pg (or m/c) actually. Though after DS, I have been getting fatter and fatter. I just can't focus and lose this weight. I hate looking int he mirror. I have never had the greatest self esteem but now it's non existent. I don't know why I can't lose weight. I think of it every day, just about everything that goes into my mouth, I'm thinking about if I should or shouldn't eat it. I have a terrible relationship with food, my body, eating. I hate feeling like this and you'd think it would be enough to make me find the motivation and will to lose weight. Plus DH has agreed to have another baby after almost 2yrs of my nagging him, but only if I lose at least 15kg, so I am able to handle the pg better. More motivation. Besides just being healthy to run around with my kids and being healthy for myself. Still just haven't managed to find the oomph I need. So deflating when I try, lose 5kgs, then just end up back where I started, or fatter. 
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