Thanks ladies!

Sloane, yea I feel as though I am in the right head space and I have poured money into it now (although only a little) you know where your treasure is there your heart is also so I kinda felt like that would be the cpmmitment I needed

Rhicc I completely agree, sometimes I think wow 30kilos that will take ages but then I realise the time is going to pass anyway and would I prefer to pass it and still be the same or to be different. Also I realise I just have to choose today to be thin and healthy (i.e make the right food choices today to get me where i want to be) causing being overweight is something you actually have to maintain.

I agree re: biggest loser being motivating, I have really wanted to do this since the series started but it has taken me this long to get there in my head