ok so i dont know if there is anything like this or anywhere to go like this so can anyone help me out.

I know i need to loose the weight and it constantly get me down.
I sit and think about all the failled diets and tablets and everything and it all comes down to i have no will power to stop wat goes in my mouth. dont get me wrong if i do start then i can last maybe a week lol.
the longest thing i have been on is tony ferguson and that was before i got preg with DD i stay on it 110% for 5months and lost nearly 30kgs. but as soon as i slipped once that was it. i have tried to go back to it but i cant get past the first day.

My biggest problem is my head. If i knwo i cant have the food then my body wants it. if i have to eat smaller my body wants more. i try so hard and it feels like i am playing tug a war with my own mind. Also y do i think i look so good then i see a photo and nearly fall apart because of how much my mind alters wat it see's
I havnt always been huge but when i was like 3kgs from my "ideal" weight i would have people tellin me i am fat. my worst problem is my family.

Does anyone know if there is someone i can go to let all of my past problems and struggles out and to get rid of this thing in my head that says i need anythign and everything.

I need to be strong. i do so well then someone will put me down or somethign goes wrong and i fall back into that bad place.

I have been on duromine and DH told me over the weekend how much of a dif he can see in my body, but then this morning my mum asks if i am preg because i look like i am. So i go into depression state because i feel liek i have worked so hard and i look worse then go off at hubby for lying about me lookin good.

I have considered trying hypnotherapy or should i try somethign like councelling (sp) or is me thinkin that a councelor would deal with my weight issues a stupid thought?

ok so if u got through that then your doing well. sorry if it all over the place but hey that is just how i am at the mo.

After reading this i think i sound so stupid that my weight is my biggest problem but it just seems everythign thing i do comes back to it.