Hi all
Just popping in to introduce myself. I am 31 (turning 32 this year) and my DH is 36.
My husband has azoospermia, so we are on the IVF merry go around using anon. donor sperm.
We have recently had our first stimulated cycle which unfortunately was neg. We have 4 snowbubbies and will be trying our first FET probably in Nov.
We are pretty positive at the moment, although in all honesty I dont feel completely at ease with the donor thing. Its been so hard to come to terms with the azoo. diagnosis and every now and then I cry myself to sleep thinking that the man I fell in love with and I will never have a biological child together. It almost feels like grieving for something so precious that has been taken from us. My DH has been so strong ie: he has come to terms with the diagnosis much sooner than I have. I have so many conflicting feelings from time to time ie: the need for a child vs. the fear of the unknown (I dont know anything about the donor - all I know from the clinic staff is that he is a lovely man which was very important for me - although all donors are pretty special people). I also sometimes feel like I am betraying my partner ie: if he cant have biological kids, then shouldnt I just accept that is my fate as well.. oh, it drives me nuts sometimes. All in all, I know that we both want children and that we will love them dearly together no matter what. Does anyone else go through this - and is there a support group for donor conception that you would recommend.
Cheers
V