Donor Conception General Chatter #6

[Caramello]

Not such a good time this afternoon - basically had my Principal and GP blame my weight for my depression - whereas I think that it's the other way around. I also think it has more to do with having so many things happen in such a short period of time, becoming depressed THEN eating the wrong thing.

Also felt like the GP was not really convinced I am depressed - mainly because I AM feeling better after talking to the counsellor (or was, now I just feel very emotional). However I have booked in to see him on Thursday to do the mental health check as a long appointment.

I also got my blood test back - cholesterol within normal range but a little high, iron levels within normal levels but on the low side. I'm actually taking an iron tablet a day, so this is a little concerning.

After the up and down emotions of the past few days I had a little meltdown resulting in a massive talk with DH - feel emotional still but DH is listening - said a few things that were shocking for him to hear, but he accepted where I was coming from. Mainly about needing to feel that I was not running everything, but feeling supported. The air is cleared - let see what happens.

I've also watched a Buffy episode 'When she was bad' and it actually turned out to be fairly relevant. She's had a massive scare and was acting nastily to her friends (sort of like me being in my tired, withdrawn bubble). She only came back again when she became physical. Maybe there is something in that...(maybe I should look into boxing???)

Hope you are both doing ok...sorry, a lot about me tonight...

[blizz]

that's a big call from your GP not to mention your principal, how dare he?????? It really irritates me that GP's and the like are quick to blame all problems on being overweight but should be able to see the bigger picture!!!!!!! I know exactly what you mean as I am cycling in a similar situation with my weight.
Weight that has come from my feelings of insecurtity about myself not from over eating, as you say the over eating is a comfort/coping mechanism in depression.
Oh honey, I feel wild on your behalf.
I hate finger pointers if they only did their job and looked at the whole person for their answers and trust in the fact that each individual knows their bodies better than anyone else, OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

[Caramello]

I talked to my BF briefly and she is also livid. What is it that gives people the right to make assumptions? So is it only overweight people that get depressed??? I think not!

I have no idea what will happen tomorrow night when I get this thing done with my GP.

My GP also told me about the psychologist starting up with him. I thought about going and then I thought - 'get real'! Can you imagine trying to talk to someone that I know is a friend of his about donor conception - when I know my own GP has issues with it?

No, I'll find someone on my own/ through my IVF counsellor thank you very much...

[Malyna]

Gargy, i have had so many battles with GPs re the depression. I have PTSD, which doesn't help things. My weight is a sheild against people getting to close to me, in particular men. I had a situation where I was chronically tired, went to the GP who said "oh switch medications" and I was trying to tell him that I was depressed because I had no energy, so I was eating the wrong foods, gaining weight, adding to the sadness and the lack of ooomph and the cycle continued! Eventually took myself off the meds, after implementing some coping mechanisms (changing my perspective, meditating, taking more time out for me, asking my DH to show compassion towards me and the big one was following my spirituality-regardless of what other people think!)

I think the chinese have a better system.. they pay the doctors to keep you healthy, and when you fall ill, they stop getting paid!! more incentive to keep people healthy.


Blizz.. you look after yourself and junior - otherwise I'll come down there and give you a stern talking to (.. me thinks this is not a very good threat!!)
Love ya honeys!!

[Caramello]

So glad you both understand

I found it incredibly frustrating because I KNOW my moods have changed - and the reason why has little to do with what is going into my mouth.

I suppose the good part about this is knowing that my IVF counsellor is on my side. We have history and she knows that I am not my normal self.

Thanks for your support.

[blizz]

glad you've got a counsellor on your own terms Gargy.
as for me well what a day
I was really worried the other night about the cramps and lack of MS but the cramps eased off after i'd gone to sleep obviously and this morning I coughed, nothing out of the ordinary just a cough and that was enough for me to get up close and personal with my WC before I had managed to eat anything,
so this in turn set the theme of my day............. a general queasy feeling that didn't let up (more like the MS of old)
felt so lack luster tonight that I thought i would temporarily console myself with KFC (consequently Paige has discovered Pop corn chicken) so I have been soooooooooooooooooooooooo naughty, no walk in sight as the weather is terrible here (like I need an excuse) we have gail force winds and rain at the moment (any one want to move here now?)
so this in turn led to my fur baby falling back in to old habbits.
before Paige was born he went through a stage of putting his head through the dog door then checking what the weather was doing if it looked like his little hiene was in danger of getting cold and wet he would do his buisness in the spare room.....hhhhhhmmmmmm....well!!....the spare room is now Paiges abode and apparently he was again in danger of getting a cold toocus so a rather large no#2 was left for me in about 4 different places in the room(I don't know how so much doggy do could fit in his body.....OMG!!!!!!)
So to finish off my night I now have essence-of-dog scenting my house and poor little Paige has a stinky room which I won't be able to air out properly until the weekend.
Who would really choose to have dogs inside?????????(well honestly I wouldn't change it mostly)
Oh well hope you get a smile about my misadventures
I am going to try to get us packed now so I can pop back in in a little while BBL

[Caramello]

Oh no - nothing like the smell of poo permeating the house!

Yes - I read on another thread that there was hurricane warnings down there! How scary!

Yes, I often think that particularly when puss cat and pup dog have thrown up some where - but luckily I haven't been left a poo present.

[blizz]

yay 2nd night in a row and organised by 9:00 all done so a little me time before bed

[Caramello]

Well done you!

How's the weather down there now?

[blizz]

wild and wooly, have closed Paige's door so sheppy doesn't get any ideas lazy Buggar
am sitting around in my Jim-Jams and Uggies and am thinking seriously about making a cuppa (not sure about caffine before bed though)
Got the heater pumping in Paige's room and I have added a extra blankie in preperation for a snuggled sleep think I am all set.
How are you feeling today?, you certainly have been haveing a rough time of it!! I did my 'naana in my lunch break today as you can see from my earlier post oooohhh I was so mad because I have had similar comments made to me over the time I remember going to DH's doctor with him, for his appointment and DH's doctor looked at me and said "if you want to make the babies you need to loose the weight" when DH was in the exam room I was speechless.
He also advised my DH that we should adopt a baby and totally poo-hooed the idea of DC

[Caramello]

Mad isn't it - it's still 27 degrees up here!

Had a fairly crappy day for the first half of the day - my year 7s were atrocious - but it got better with the reading program - we finally got to go to the Primary school and spend some time with the students there.

Spent a lot of time analysing what's going on in my life for the first part of the day(as you can probably tell by the amount of blogging/posting I've been doing).

Have a bad headache at the moment, probably due to overthinking and tiredness.

Funny thing is the GP is very good in terms of physical stuff. He was the only one that listened to me about my gallbladder and tonsils. However he also is defined by his beliefs (aren't we all).

One thing I like about him too is that he is very thorough and will make his own opinions.

I suppose we just have to learn to work with each other.

As for my principal - well, he has a tendancy to say whatever is in his mind without thinking about the emotional consequences.

They are correct in that I do have issues with weight - I just think that they are seeing it the wrong way around.

Anyway, this is my first chocolate free day in a while (probably also adding to the headache).

Actually I think I will head to bed now - so glad to hear from you and I hope the storms don't get too bad. Talk soon!

[blizz]

night honey, hope your headache vanishes, I think I might follow suite, the thought of that extra blanket on my bed is awfully appealing (think sheppy thinks so he's already taken over DH's side of the bed)
Talk to you soon, take care of yourself'
Oh and Tarkine...you can come and give me a talkin' to any day of the week hon (I wouldn't recomend the weather here at the moment though)
night all

[Caramello]

Morning Blizz, Morning Tarkine!

Just writing to let you know that I got the testing done last night and I'm feeling much better this morning. I'll write in more detail later in the day.

Sending good wishes to you both!

Hi to anyone else out there.

[alioops]

hey girls

Gargy - gotta love everyone thinking they know what everyone else is going thru hey!

Blizz - good thinking on shutting paige's door, gotta love dog poo, not!

[blizz]

Hi all, one more night as a single woman, Dh has stayed an extra night to share a barrel with the boys so I get one more night of stretching out where I want too (if I can convince sheppy to sleep on his bed tonight that is)
Paige is already in bed after a big week of visits to the toddler room....sob!...my baby is growing up, she is sooooo cactus tonight that it's just not funny!!
she waved good night to the television tonight (me thinks they are developing an unhealthy relationship!!!!)
have had a stressfull day of running the center today as my boss was away I know I should love the challenge but I just worry about it way too much(try to keep everyone happy even when it just isn't possible).
It all went well though think I better do a little bit of house work before DH catches me in a complete state of feral, I'll pop back in later after I finish sending out a search party for dirty socks and undies, probably should clean the kitchen and stack the dish washer as well, back in a bit.

[Malyna]

hey girls

Gargy - gotta love everyone thinking they know what everyone else is going thru hey!

Blizz - good thinking on shutting paige's door, gotta love dog poo, not!

I agree with you alioops.. nothing worse than everyone thinking they know what your going through... i remember some old guy in the bed next to DH when he was having a hip replacement giving DH the talk about not being scared of the operation - ha! little did he know that by that stage DH had had about 30 major surgeries.. but its all part of life putting up with people who think they know everything about everything and in reality know nothing about everything!!

Blizz.. good luck getting space in the bed! hope you manage to round up the rouge socks and undies!

[blizz]

Hi Tarkine, how goes all with you?
DH called to say he'll be home around 10:00am in the morning so I guess he'll catch me in feral mode as I have had a really bad case of the I-cant-be-bothereds tonight and have got nothing done I will do the kitchen shortly but blow it!!! I am going to leave everything else.
think I'm going to head to bed about half ten and watch NCIS

[Caramello]

Slightly unimpressed with DH at the moment. He was supposed to ring up to organise delivery of his desk. Of course he didn't and left his phone switched off. So a very irate customer service person has organised delivery for between 6AM and 8AM tomorrow!! GRRRR.

I tell you what if it's not there by then I will have a few words to say to the factory when it is delivered!

Other than that, a pretty good day. Kids were really enthused about creating their picture books. And the Head Teacher Admin was rather nice to me and gave me some time off. So I got some work done instead.

Just catching up on some TV from the week - currently watching Jason Byrne riverdancing!

Same as you Blizz - thinking I have to clean up before these people come tomorrow but also having a case of the I can't be bothered!

Tarkine - yeah they do get a bit annoying.

Hi Ali!

Hey everyone else!