I am a bit of a perfectionist with work. If i can't do it right/well/properly I tend to want to give up. Close enough ain't good enough and I exhaust myself trying.

I am a performing arts teacher in a Primary school. I am super lucky that my Prin has given me autonomy over my program - which is ace seeing as I have no formal music background.

I just find that I spend SO many hours on preparation, professional reading, $$ on texts for myself - only to have uninspired kids who just spend 45 mins looking bored. I wonder if it's worth the time and $$ away from my own kids.... I am also at the point where I wonder if I should go back to classroom teaching next year but then I would have reports and more cr@p to deal with than now.

I LOVE music ed, I think it is so important but maybe I should leave it to the experts!
I am babbling now, but as a point in case - we recently had our whole school production - Alice in Wonderland - 240 kids, I work 2 days a week but did 4 days a week for 6 weeks leading up to get in rehearsals etc. Worked out perfectly - lots of parents came up to me and said - "Perfectionist much? but it was wonderful".
Now I am back to teaching "normal" classes maybe I am feeling like it's boring and so are the kids? We have a few performances we are working towards but I dunno.

Not even sure what my question is - just feel like I needed to get it out and pick some brains!