hey faith,

thanks for the reply, it's nice to know i'm not alone,

I'm over weight which makes things hard cos most doctors don't believe you when you say you eat healthaly and exercise, so it is sickly refreshing to be told PCOS is the reason you can't lose weight.. but being vego, been there, missed streak :O). but does say somthing i guess about orginac farming. hopefully they have a nicer "process". me, i'm a bit of a "raw" freak, raw veg. only cook my meat... the less processing the better for me :O) specially with my stomach issues

i wonder have you ever gotten a reason for your misscarriage/s? everything you read says you shoud be tested to see what is happening, but i never have???? it really ****ed me off with the last one, we got a strong heart beat 24 hours before i lost it.... why wasn't the doc interested in finding out what happened?????? i'm dumb founded

you've mentioned sperm friendly lube? i can't seem to find any any where.... where do you get it?

i wonder (sorry i tend to wonder a lot :O) how you go with your tablets, my doctors want to see me on anti deppresants, but same thing, need to be on them to be mentally ready to do what is required to be pregnant, but don't like the idea of being on them when pregnant, they've not been tested in pregency. and i hate the idea of being on them and not realising i'm pregnant.

i don't think my body can handle another loss.. the last one really stuffed me up, so i'm scared to try again... but scared what life will hold without children. (the husband doesn't want to adpot, and IVF won't help me stay pregnant) so i'm lost. hubby is happy to just keep trying and loseing, but he can't consider the mental and physical implications....

sorry if i tend to ramble, but i'm in the place after the last straw (if you now what i mean)

good luck.... hope you feel better soon..