I know in my heart that I want 3 children, but I guess I am scared to take that leap and actually make a conscious decision to TTC. In a way it would be easier if the decision were made for me, like if we were to get pg by "accident" but that is not going to happen since I am on the pill - I have to make the choice to stop taking it. Sigh. I think I should try focusing on something else before I do my head in!

Bon