Michelle i think u r absolutely valid in thinking that way...one experience was more than enough - u don't need another. Take that time to enjoy the arrival of ur newest family member with the people who support u and make u feel sane. A new mother -whether it's baby #1 or #6 needs time to bond with and enjoy her new bub - not get stressed. Stick to ur guns girl - and do what's best for u and ur family!!!!!