To make a long story short, I am not entirely happy with the way I was brought up which only really came out once I had DS. My mum is a person who is down alot and worries about everything. She is going for an operation to help her eye sight in a couple of weeks time and frets about it to me every time I talk to her. I have been dealing with PND and have become quite angry that I have alot of crap to deal with from my upbringing. I don;t feel like I have any practical emotional support from my family.
I've started to disconnect from my parents and simply don't have the energy for them. I've been brought up to think that I owe my parents for what they did for me and this means I need to constantly call up, be there for them and one day my mum will live with us (age not really coming into it). I feel like I haven't had much in return, she does mind DS but only when I've asked and now can't obviously because she isn't well. I have lost all perspective on this and don't know how much to give or am I being totally selfish? My dad is another kettle of fish that will take me awhile to forgive and forget what has happened in the past. Can anyone shed some light on this as I am soooo confused!




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