THe decision to have an only child was my ex husbands. Later after being diagnosed with anxiety and depression I came to the realisation that one child was more than enough for me to cope with.

I have had many negative comments, yes. Only now that DS is at school and I am in a new relationship and my partner and I dont want children together, have my close family accepted that there will be no more babies for me.

My son has been begging for a baby sister since he was 2 years old! Sometimes it breaks my heart a little when he says it, cause in another depression and anxiety free life there is nothing I would want more than a baby girl. DS told me last week that all he ever wants is to be a brother, but really, at 5 years old he cant understand what it would mean for us if we had a baby in the house. If I had another baby just for DS sake, DS could end up hating the baby so that would be a very silly thing i think. DS is lucky that he has 2 cousins and 1 on the way and we are a close family so he sees them a lot.

I think DS would be missing out if we had a baby in the house actually. I would have the energy or patience for him, we wouldnt be able to fun big kid stuff on the weekends without a screaming baby/toddler in tow, he wouldnt be able to spend the occasional night in my bed cause there would be a baby in there. I would have far less money to spend on him.

The thing I say to new mums is, if you want more than one child, then have em close together cause if you wait for your child to go to school you might not wanna go back to the baby days!