Angel,

I know exactly what you mean. I have these thoughts too. Every now and then Joshua will have a particularly cranky day that just seems to go on and on wears me down to the point that I just want to tear my hair out. But like you, I feel like I am not entitled to get annoyed or get frustrated by it because we went through so much just to get him here. I mean, we lost Georgia and our second bub and then had to work really hard to get Joshua into the world safely - shouldn't I be so grateful to have him here that a bit of whingeing or lack of sleep doesn't matter?

Logically I know the answer to that question is no - as grateful as we are to have our bubs here, we are just as entitled to feel annoyed by the crying/lack of sleep/whatever as the next person. Sometimes our feelings just aren't logical though!

Anyway, you are not alone and I'm glad that you brought the topic up - it's nice to know that there are others who feel the same way.