Thankyou very much Fleur and Mantaray. Your words and thoughts are very much appreciated. I have had councilling before and i was wondering if i should talk to someone to help me work out what it is that i'm searching for. I have often wondered if it is something missing in my life, and i definately need to do some more things for myself. However i always feel so bad asking anyone to help out especially if its something not important, like doctor visits etc. I think i'll keep thinking about it all and talking to DH, but writing it down has definately helped me already.