Oh gosh I'm a glutten for punishment.
So instead of taking your well meaning and sound advice I chose to 'give it another go'
And as per usual I have wound up feeling worse about myself.
For a short time things were great, he was lovely now he's back to putting me down and saying things like "if I don't answer a certain question or do something there won't be a future ..." Why do I go back? Continually? Boy I'm feeling like a massive screwup. Sorry for venting/ranting just a bit lost.