...I'm having a girl, I'd love to have more kids hut I really fear bringing them into a relationship that is not great. I also don't want my daughter to have a mother who puts up with crap...
Listen to yourself here. Think about your daughter.

Normal people don't speak to their loved one like that, middle of the conversation or not. Middle of a fight maybe? But... If my husband ever called me pathetic or said I was f-n anything, we'd be in couples therapy faster than he could blink. That's not ok.