Argh -damn internet keeping on losing my posts.

Another one here whos feels very done and who would also be devastated if we fell pregnant againt (hopefully not as DH has had a vasectomy). DH also feels done, whislt no son, he is happy with our 2 girls.

I love that life is going forward now, we can make decisions like type of car, how many bedrooms, getting rid of the baby stuff etc. I am back at work knowing that I am there for as long as I want. This will sound bad, but to me having babies is a bit like pausing life, well it is a stage of life that is important, but during it other areas stagnant or go backwards. For me, life is no longer paused.

I have hard births and the first 3-6 months are very hard for me due to breastfeeding issues. I also developed a dodgy pelvis. I am pushing 40 and really just don't want to go there again at my age (yes others do, but not for me)