Thanks again girls I went to the doctor AGAIN today. Feels like I've been there every 2nd day for the past fortnight. Most of the consultations are long too. My 13yo is getting increasingly impatient. I don't think she understand the magnitude of the situation. I don't want to scare her but at the same time it's hard when she moans and groans about looking after the boys again in the surgery (which has it's own enclosed playroom full of toys and a cubby house ie the boys are fully occupied). I'm tempted to just tell her I could keel over and die but that's not right. It's ok for her to say "OMG at every minor event in life eg her hair won't sit properly... she's going through her second toddlerhood... centre of the universe... she needs a good dose of reality... *vent*)

Anyhow today i have been prescribed the Beta blockers which slow down my heart rate. I think they are already working. I'm not as aware of the beating today. I had a hard job convincing the doctor to let me try the natural remedies before going onto the anti-thyroid tablets. He kept going on about death. Apparently 1/3 of people who experience a thyroid storm die. Ok... so what are the symptoms leading up to one: vomitting, racing heart, diarrhea, profuse sweating... ok if that happens i'll go to one of Melbourne's biggest hospitals which is only a few blocks away. I have read about the side affects and I don't want a bar of them. Also i will have to stop BF immediately as they are not compatible with BF... he says that technically BF and beta blockers isn't recommended but he has known of many women to BF while taking them. There have been no known side affects for BFing babies... the drug companies say no simply because no studies have been done. He says the science (in his trained mind) would indicate that it would be safe. Anyhow... I'm waiting for my Thyro-Soothe to arrive... start taking that... see how I feel and try to string out another visit to the doctors because it's costing me fortune. The doctor said though that he could start bulk billing me if it got too tight... that was a relief!

Tracey: LOL I'm not so positive about it all today, but thanks for your support. Likewise Amanda and Krys, i really value it... i don't feel so alone. DH is in the bad books ATM because he went to hi s work Xmas party last night (even though I said he could) but drank too much (wasn't p!ssed) and wasn't able to help with the boys last night... lucky my youngest slept right through to 7.30am if he had had a restless night I would have been livid. I told my DH that yes, seeing as though he had paid for the night he might as well go.... I just didn't expect he would have a late one