I am going to see my guru-teacher-man today. Want to get my head sorted before I see the Dr again tomorrow. So it's kind of handy having my own personal shaman to turn to at moments like this. Apart from the scariness factor, I feel like someone has wedged a huge firecracker up my bum. To a certain extent, I have used having a baby/young toddler as an excuse to hide away from life instead of getting out there and embracing it fully. The reality is there is No Time to Waste, regardless of what the doctor says tomorrow, good or bad.