Firstly, it's not as bad as it sounds! I'm not about to go on a crash diet, or an intensive workout programme or anything irresponsible.

I'm not even sure if I'm pregnant yet, but I'm feeling so revolting right now, and while we are TTC, and I would love to be pg, am also feeling very guilty about not losing weight first!

I weight 130kg..that's unbelivable..even just typing that amount and knowing it's me..I'm trying not to look at the number. I'm quite depressed about it at the moment, and wondering, if I were to be pregnant (AF is 2 days late and due to odd events, I cannot get a HPT for another week), provided I was eating healthy, fresh foods and getting plenty of nutrients, and ensuring I was not actually 'going hungry', and kept my gym workouts to a gentle level, would weight loss during pregnancy still be alright?

I know I could just..forget about my weight and wait until after birth and recovery, but if possible, I'd really like to get into better shape, and more healthy asap.

I hope this has not come across as irresponsible and superficial, but I am so plagued by this right now, I need to feel like there's something I can do.

Lisa xx