Harmony, have you called the clinic I gave you the number too? Seriusly they are a godsend and they will give you advice on everything you are going through, as well as pamphlets and information everything too!
If ya want me to come with you to show you it all, I can but its really the best thing, they help so much!

And try not to feel down on yourself, you are doing everything right and as hard as it is, it will get better. PROMISE!