i find it sooo hard to sleep because i'm constantly worried about ds when he is asleep. i check on him at least every 1/2 hour.. and wake up in a panic to check him if i find i have slept for more than 2 hours at a time.

I think i'm obsessed with the idea that he is going to stop breathing.. i have nightmares about going into the room and finding him dead i hate this!!!

i just want to enjoy every minute of being a new mum but its hard when i can't stop thinking this...

then i thought about buying a breathing monitor, but i still don't think this will put my mind at ease...

any suggestions? did anyone else feel this way? am i being stupid?