Hi all,

Sorry, i'm over tired and hormonal and emotional and need to get this out there.

We have to stop co-sleeping. It's been quite successful for the last year, but ds is an exceptionally light sleeper and soon I'll have a newborn in the room with me as well. It just won't work, and I want to end it now rather than later, so we are all in a stable position when the new baby comes.

But it's breaking my heart the poor kid just cries and cries- he's inconsolable. He just wants to be cuddled up next to mummy. And it's so cold at night at night at the moment. And I miss him, I miss having him there and knowing he is safe. I feel so bad- I did this to him and now I'm taking away his comfort and I feel so guilty. And to top all that off, I find myself getting cranky with him at 4am when i've been up to him 6 times and he's still screaming, and that makes me feel more guilty.

Thanks for listening. Going off to have a little cry and hunt down some chocolate.