Had my 2nd session of acupuncture today so fingers crossed things get moving, even more so then ever cos at my OB appointment today she take my BP, measured my fundla height then promptly got on the telephone and booked an induction date for me - the 5th of September (next wednesday). I was in shocked - it took all my control not to burst into tears.

I think Joel sensed my feeling and asked, "so what does that mean, what will happen then" and she gave us a one page info sheet outlining the procedure with pretty pictures !! The only questions I was capable fo asking were, 'will you give me some time after you break my waters to see if things progress' and se replied, 'no we do that then get you straight on the drip cos it's your 1st baby and things never happen that quickly with your 1st' again I required all my composure to not cry...........I think the OB sensed my silence and tried to reassure me, "Don't worry you have a baby by lunchtime on the 5th" OMG - I don't need to be at the ****ing hospital til 6am so she isn't going to muck around.

As soon as I got out of her office I burst into tears and cried all the way home. Joel read thru the info sheet but has decided to keep his distance from me ATM. Yes I'm upset but hey I could do with a hug and some support. I know it's obvious that I''m angry but not at him............

So many thoughts are running through my mind. It's obvious that this OB is not interested in my opinion / feelings and needs therefore do I (a) write her a letter and fax it to her office outlining all my concerns and that way I at least get them heard as in person she is soooooo rushed it's impossible. I was prepared today but when she booked the induction without speaking to me first I was caught off guard IYKWIM..... and see what response IF ANY I get.

(b) incl in the letter that I'm not willing to consent to the induction and will be seeking a 2nd opinion prior to our next appt - the day before the induction....

(c) thank her for her "record-keeping" but say I've decided to wait til my baby is ready and that I plan to attend the public emergency section at that time and go thru the public system

(d) give in and not make a big deal of this...........

I know you ladies won't mind me venting here.........and that's one of the reasons I love BB. Thanks in advance for listening and your support. Your opinions even if different from mine are welcomed. perahps I am making too much out of this ???

Cindy