that may be true maz, but your pain is significant to you
we all understand.
and we all have little things which break us, and letting them out allows us to stay strong and reflect on everything we DO have.
so don't be sorry or dismiss your OP.

You miss your mum and I know how that feels, yes you will hold her next month and you could ring, but it doesn't make those things you hold ever so dear and give you a spark of love and hope each year appear.

huge hugs..