My midwife has been honestly unreal. Allowing me to talk about the most difficult parts and offering up perspective and comforting words. I have seen her everyday and I'm not sure how I will possibly thank her for everything she's done for me.

PZ - THANK YOU. Thank you for sharing. It's so comforting to know that I'm not the only one. I guess when I always thought home birth I thought of zen and calm and my experience was loud, with guttural screaming, and fear the whole way through. There is a lot I would do to prepare next time, and my midwife put it perfectly - instead of looking forward to the birth, look forward to the baby at the end and prepare as best as I can for the birth. I had this romanticized idea about what my birth would be like. Next time ill go in differently, but knowing that feeling of the baby at the end now will be what gets me through.

B - what a brilliant effort by your sister, but so sad it ending in c section. I hope her recovery is short and sweet. How beautiful to have all these babies at once in your family!