Oh Freya. Are you on the Facebook Homebirth group too? They have been slamming cmp a bit. But hey I was dumped by my IMs at 40+2 until I jumped thru their hoops. Not that reassuring I admit but just pointing out there is no guarantee with providers. You do need to be prepared to fight for what you want! And sadly probably be willing to jump thru some hoops. Hugs.
Yeah I am, in hindsight probably not the group for me but now Im panicking and wondering if Im going to regret this. Its the last thing I want