Few dramas have emerged in the last week. I now have no midwife. She expressed concerns about my history and location and decided she was no longer comfortable supporting me at home.
So we've booked into the local hospital only to be turned away in early labour on Wednesday due to my birth choices.
I then chose to move to the next hospital, a large tertiary hospital, and what we thought was established labour, stopped. I was contracting 1-2 mins apart, lastnight 1-2 mins long for 5 hours. As soon as we made the decision to move to hospital, things stopped and upon agreeing to a VE was found to only be 2cm.
I am now back at home on the farm and have decided not to leave at all. It could be a risky decision given my history an our location and also that I don't have the support of my partner on free birthing but I have learnt now that moving away from home in labour is not for me. It interrupts my mind space too much.
So that's where we are at for now. 38 weeks today!
I had my first ever nightmare about giving birth last night. It was awful and I woke up in a panic. Ive never had this happen before but I think it was triggered by a letter I got from the hospital I decided to book into as a backup. Aside from waking up in a not so nice way it helped me realise I have absolutely made the right choice to home birth.
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