hi girls - just had our last visit from our wonderful midwife. I had a big speech in my head about what an incredible gift she gave me by being our midwife - how she supported me in a way that allowed me to find my own voice as an adult and a woman, that she gave me permission to follow my instincts after a lifetime (and a world full of messages) of telling me they're wrong, and how she provided me with the love and protection that I didn't get from my own mum....I wanted to tell her all of these things but I just got choked up and cried. It was so hard to say goodbye...DH said it was the end of something, but also the beginning of something too. Maybe I'll send her an email to tell her what I wanted to say? Now I desperately want to get pregnant again so I can have another homebirth and an excuse to keep seeing her!!