I understand the research MNB... if we contemplate another I will need to research and talk to MWs BEFORE even getting pregnant because I need to know if I'm up against "high rick" now I'm over 35 (I've heard that's an issue in the states!!!)

Thanks to everyone for your kind words about losing my mum. It is still triggering to write about it so thank you for your compassion. Mother's aren't allowed to "depart" in our society and I think that makes such a struggle for women who are dealing with PTSD and PND after the birth of their children

That's a really interesting article hoti- thanks for sharing! I felt like that even though I was not "high risk". I was not one of those women who was happy to transfer at the slightest whim and only wanted to HB if things were easy. I really believe we were safer at home and I was only going to hospital unconscious!