Thanks MantaRay, i know i could still keep the BF & work if i had to. I don't really need to return yet as my position is still available to me for a while yet & we are doing fine on one wage atm. I just thought it might be nice to have a day to socialise & a bit of mind stimulation, though i do have a pamper nite on Sunday's with my sisters & i do dancing one nite a week & have started to have a massage every month or so, so i'm doing ok!!
I might enjoy time at home with her a little bit longer while i can, & if they are desperate for a fill in at work every now & then i guess i can just worry about it when the time comes.