oh hun, what a big decision! You have done such an awesome job and you should be very proud. I had to exclusively express for just 2 days and I was exhausted, so I really have a lot of admiration for you.

Obviously only you can make the decision, but I hope it's helped you to write your thoughts out. It doesn't have to be all or nothing, but only you can decide what is going to work for you. FWIW I am pretty sure the ABA counsellor wouldn't try to talk you into continuing, so if you think it would help to talk to someone, by all means give the helpline a call.

I wish you all the very best with this decision hun.