I too struggled to get bf started with our first and only got to 4 months. Second child didn't have reflux and fed really well, but I still found it a bit of an emotional time when his feeds reduced after 12 months. A friend summed it up, when she said that you kinda half expect to be the one who decides to ween, so when it's infant-led, it's a bit of a surprise. We ended up just having one feed before bedtime and it got to the point where it was summer and we were hot and he was pulling off, so decided at around 14 months that that was going to be it.
I can understand you wanting to continue on with it, b/c it's such a special time with your bby. Can you still enjoy cuddles together if the feeds stop altogether? Instead of the pre-bed feed, I would sit up in my bed and read bedtime stories and have a cuddle.
Still, it's a bit of an emotional rollercoaster, isn't it?