Hey all,

It's been a while since I last wrote in this thread but I have been reading your comments!! Thanks to all for the words of advice and support. Now that I'm getting close to having Ryan the questions are now "are you excited?" "are you nervous?" and by people who don't know me "is this your first baby?". Seems with impending bubs it doesn't matter now if he was an accident or not. I still get asked occassionally but I just say "no he wasn't an accident" and get either "its lovely to see a young mum" or "how old are you??". I told my nan that I was sick of people thinking it was an accident and told her what happened, I think it's slowly seeped through the family grape vine on the quiet but now no one seems to care as much they just want to meet him.

A lot of friends have come back offering baby clothes, and pretending they were supportive and so happy for me the whole way through. I'm not saying anything because I really can't be bothered putting negative energy and time into holding grudges. I just know at the end of the day who to put my time and effort into keeping in contact with and the rest I'm not going out of my way for.

I got some 4D photos done, even my dad who told me I had ruined my life and wanted me to miscarry has now turned to mush and is all excited about having a grandson. We bought a house we're doing up slowly bit by bit, we are rid of Dad2be's psycho ex, and all the bills are in credit. We've achieved more in the short time together than anyone else in my family has and have had some emotional up's and down's and some catfights from stress and adjusting but everything is going really well now.

It still annoys me, I felt so helpless and upset through the start of pregnancy, part of me really resents the lack of support but part of me is glad I got through the ups and downs on my own in a way, don't feel I owe anyone and that I am stronger than I thought I could be, if that makes sense...

To all those that have been through the same thing, all I can really say is the advice about once you're holding your bubs you won't care is true, I'm not even holding Ryan yet but seeing his chubby cheeks in the ultrasound and knowing he'll soon be in my arms is really enough to make you say bleep the lot of them and their comments. Dad2be and I have made a fat and healthy little bub and none of their comments can change that