Dh and I were married in Australia in October 2004. We are now living in Germany, and have been for about 1 year now. I find that The girls here look much older than what they really are! My point being. Im 21 years old, and i still get asked for Id here. Meaning, i must look about 17 years old.

Ever since i became pregnant I feel like i have to hide from society. Its really depressing. I know people look at me funny, point and whisper with whoever they are with. Here in Germany, its VERY rare to be married with a child on the way at 21. most people my age are studying, partying and sleeping around. however, dh and I want nothing more than to start a family and settle down. We have already done the whole "travel b4 kids" thing, can financially afford it, and are absolutely over the moon that we will be soon meeting our little boy. I know that i should be proud, but there is still that feeling inside of me that thinks that everyone is looking down on me, thinking that i am much younger than what i am.

I really need to get over this, and tell those people that think they know better just to bugger off, but im a shy person!

I am also having alot of problems with the In-laws. They are older (nearly 60), and were 30 when they had their first child. They dont understand why we want to have children "so young". They think that Ben is an accident, and we havent had the guts to tell them that he wasnt. MIL thinks she knows better, and because we have a communication problem (she knows no english, and my german isnt that great), she doesnt know me at all, and has no idea that i do actually know what im doing! So she feels like she has to look after us, and take control of the whole "getting everything ready for bubs" thing. Most of her "advice" is more like "dictation", and is so out of date its dangerous sometimes!! Its driving me INSANE!