Argh...

[Wantababy]

Hi Dear,

I know what you are feeling and a big hug to you. Even we have been trying from 2006, everyone around me fell preg or are currently preg and i was just standing by their side seeing them cuddling thier babies or talking about how good it feel to be pampered being pregnant and so on.

this year in April we decided to start with IVF, financially we were not sound we just had enough for 1 cycle, but we kept praying and started the process in June. as things does not go according to our plan, i sufferred with hyperstimulation symdrome where i ended in the hospital for 10 days in HDU unit...and they had to cancel the ET for that cycle.
i kept crying as to being young , chances of hyperstimulation was next to nil but maybe God had another plans. out of 24 eggs only 4 could make it(so we were completely lost and as normal person i felt i was the cause).

1st FET - i was very positive, took lot of care with the embreyo quality been close to A quality, we had negative, and again i cried from morning till i went to sleep that day.
so next cycle we decided not to tell any of our friends what we were doing and after the transfer i did all my normal activities, i lifted a heavy box, i usuallly go for a hr walk on weekends, and i rememberer i kept thinking how to proceed with next IVF, as we have to save money and we cant do it immediately....my TWW was just planning and i completely forgot about the embreyos in me... and by Gods grace we got our +ve, but from last 3 weeks i am on complete bed rest as i was close to MC...

hang in there girl and try to think something other, i know its difficult as this was the first month i did not think about getting positive but planning for months ahead and was planning for holiday(visiting India), and here comes our miracle baby having its own plans.