So I have finally got the ball rolling on my second cycle of IVF, yeeeehaaaa!! My first was in 2008, at the age of 38, and quite frankly, I was so bloody lucky that out of that cycle which produced 2 good blast embies, I got two pregnancies. My first one unfortunately ended half way due to an unrelated problem with me (monster fibroid) and my second pg went to term. So fast forward 3 years..........

I am now 41. I get it, I have progressed hugely on the 'graph' they keep showing you, and how the fertility goes down a huge slide. Literally. I recently went to a 'top up' counselling, and was quite surprised at the negativity of the very young counsellor. I have lost count of how many times she said 'IF you end up having another baby'. OK, so I know it will probably take longer, much longer perhaps, if at all, to get pg, but how about just a teeny weeny bit of positivity? Did the counselor have to paint such a bleak picture for me, leaving me almost with no hope at all?????????

Sorry for the vent, but after months and months of firstly convincing DF of hurrying the F up cos I ain't getting any younger, then getting over the emotional hurdle of facing the whole treatment again (jabs, more jabs, prods, more prods and then more jabs to get the eggs out) I was actually looking forward to the cycle in January. Now I am feeling quite flat, a lot less positive than I was a few days ago, and now paranoid that it won't work because I'm too old!!

Ok, rant over, no need to reply, just had to get that out