thank you soooo much, i feel a lot better after reading your replies

i think the reason why i am stressing so much is because this will be the last time we are able to ttc for nearly 3yrs due to finance problems its going to kill me waiting 3yrs, i really dont know how i am going to handle it. i have shed a million tears already just thinking about it. so there is alot riding on this cycle, which is to be our very last cycle. so i think that is why i am trying to make everything perfect this month, to give us the best possible chance kwim?

thanks again for the replies, feel alot better about it all now