You are definately not the only one in this scenario. My first IVF last December, I had 10 follicles which dropped to 5, on egg retrieval I had zero. Do people realise how soul destroying this is?? I didn't even get to have a go, get a chance. Just go home and thats it!!! Not even a refund!
I was so unimpressed with my specialists lack of medical explanation or interest. When I asked what she would do to change the protocol for the next try and she said nothing, I knew I had to change specialists. Which I did, all the way up to Brisbane, and I live in Sydney. Tried again, so scared to get no eggs. Got one. Was told it was a good one, to be told the next day it was a poor quality one and wouldnt fertilise. Said they would give me a "courtesy call" on the 24 hour mark, but "highly unlikely" and "virtually impossible" it would fertilise. I was told to stop all the drugs, cycle had finished, I could go back to Sydney now, nothing more to do. I was also told my next step seriously needs to be a donor egg. Tragic, im already using donor sperm as a single woman!!!
Got the call. My egg was showing very early signs of fertilisation!! Was told to wait overnight to see if it would divide! It divided! But a poor egg. A "minus 2" quality, not good at all. I was told to have it transfered back that day at midday which was a day 2 transfer. By the time it went back it had grown another cell, to a 3 cell, but with fragmentation. I was so thrilled to have made it to transfer for the first time. I have no illusions, my chances are tiny, but I was pyschologically satisfied. I was written off!! Told I could forget it!! So heres PRAYING that the battler of an embryo could work. The scientist said was I was "very very lucky". Heres hoping the "lucky" will be my miracle.
Hope this helps in someway to someone out there sad, and depressed and just about to give up.