Haven't been on for a while, I keep trying to pretend I am coping with it all and then realise how much I am praying it will happen naturally before we have to do ivf next year. Has anyone used counsellors through the fertility clinics, I feel like I am at a point where I may need them because in reality I am not coping. One of my very close friends that we spend a lot of time with is 10 weeks pregnant and I hate the feeling of jealousy I get and some days I am that much of a mess with our own rollercoaster that I can't go and see her.
I know she understands but I don't want to break down in front of her as I don't ever want her to not feel like she can talk to me about her pregnancy. On my good days I love sharing it with her but bad days I don't want to know.
I feel so selfish, I am hoping others have gone through this and might be able to help me.