Im with you too lumnescent. Im turning 40 in October. We have been trying for our 2nd since Sept 2009 and found out DH has zero sperm count....told we were an FS's dream couple.....no real issues except DH'd blockage...so we should be really positive.....well two full stim cycles and a total of six transfers (2 fresh 4 frozen) I have had one MC and 2 chemicals.....The dream of a baby just seems so far away.

I am trying to eat well and be healthy but Im just so depressed by the whole situation it leads me to sabotage myself....then I feel worse and its a cycle I am having trouble breaking.

I am trying to tell myself that nothing is really going to change just because a date comes and goes.....and my FS is still confident its just a matter of time...I just wish I could believe him.

Goodluck with getting your health back on track and your future cycle....