Thanks Dantri and Kashby.

Dantri - it's good to know that someone found it helpful.. Of course now I'm having a good day so things dont feel so bad (picked up my synarel today so feels real). When I feel really low though I just want something to make it all better....

Thanks Kashby - I really do want practical strategies to help me cope. Someone listening is helpful, but I have my very close friend who is good at that....it sucks that you were very disappointed. I work in crisis work and I think it's hard for us to see counsellors as we know all the
"tricks". We are a very tough audience unfortunatley...

Oh what to do...those low days just get so bad it's hard to get out of bed. Fortunatley I have talk to my direct supervisor about those really bad days and she is very understanding and has given me permission to not come in if i have one of those days...easier said than done because when I have the bad days all I really want is to be my normal self again and I have a very good work ethic. I think I have had a total of 8 days of in 4 years...

I do have access to internal EAP counsellors...I wonder what they are like..

Anyway, thanks for your responses!