Hi to everyone,

Having one of those 'low' days and probably just need to offload without bring anyone down. sorry if i do. I'm not even on a cycle - 3 weeks from a failed cycle. I don't know what these hormones do to me and I don't even know if it is the hormones or just me anymore.
So ok I got over the weight gain thing. Size 6 to 12 ..I'm not so sure i've accepted the 'lumpy fat' thing. Its like ok, so I'm bigger but the fat on my stomach, thighs up to my knees is lumpy!!..its like cellulite ? even on below my boobs? and their isn't much fat there....anyhow does anyone know if these drugs takes many months to get out of your system. Does anyone find they bloat up in the afternoons after a failed cycle..like I wake up, put my clothes on only to find by after lunch fluid builds up & my clothes are soooo tight & uncomfortable & my weight goes up 1kg+??

Anyway I try to be ok on the meds..especially wary of that trigger and crinone..has anyone flipped it and had a big arguement with DH when cycling? so what's my excuse when I'm not stimming. Why am I an emotional wreck, why can't I cope like the worlds ending!..now it maybe all over as he can't cope with me and asks me is this because of the ivf meds. I don't know what to say, its been 3 weeks maybe, or maybe I'm just feeling depressed with things, everythings getting to me & I feel myself wanting everything over as I can't cope. You know... wouldn't that be easier coz the big fear of not getting pregnant is harder to deal with. I ended up saying ivf is over, I'm not doing it anymore, and he says he can't deal with what I put him through..But what about what I have to go through..don't we go through MORE emotional & physical stuff ....So not sure where to go from here, just wanted to hear if other people have testing times, everyday in my mind is ivf, protocols, reading etc . Everyone sounds so strong and happy.
I find the bad thing with ivf is that I don't know how to predict my moods. On a natural cycle I know when I will have pmt and so am patient with myself and others but this ivf I can't predict any of it.

Anyway please tell me I'm normal