thanks guys i do have some support but not much my mum is really good but she works and i feel bad if i ask for a hand sometimes. my husbands mother is a nut and can barely look after herself let alone anyone else, husbands dad and step mum live in sydney and are now traveling around aus. I have one older sister but she has 3 kids of her own. And my best friend who is no longer my best friend was friends first with all the other people i used to talk too so i feel as if i cant speek to them. My husband is my rock at the moment and most of the times comes across as if he understands. I just need to get out and meet new people and i think i will be fine.