Hi my name is cass i am 23 i have 4 children 1 of my own his name is Xzander and is 16mths old and 3 step children Rob 10, sean & Vanessa both 8 (twins), all 4 children live with myself and my husband full time my step kids only visit there mother every now and again. I was just wondering if anyone out there in cyber space has gone through the same thing as i have and have the same feelings as myself.

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I was 18 didn't have any desire to have children then i met my now husband wich i fell in love with and found out he had 3 kids and a ex wife. First the children only came to visit us every second weekend then the ex decided it was to hard for her and dumped them on us (raley sore them and pays **** all in child support $6 a week to be exact that is for all the kids, not each) I found out i was pregnant just after they came to live with us. I just ound out i was pregnant, i was trying to get he kids into school, organising a wedding, getting ready to have a baby and dealing with my husbands crazy mother and ex!
Sometimes i feel resentment towards the kids and i have no idea why, I still dont feel close to them and try to keep them at arms length. Why, and is anyone else out there with a similar situation?