Sotto
It's really hard - these last few days waiting for the BT. It is one of the hardest, most excruciating parts of IVF. I know that being told that your precious embies are grade 4's has not helped your optimism on this either.

There are other gals in here who did end up with BFPs and didn't feel pg at this point either. There is still a chance. And even though the statistics for those of us in our 39+ is not brilliant, there can still be miracles. I found that I had to chant little positive affirmations to myself whenever I had a negative thought in my head. I found I was overcome by negative thoughts way too often. And I'm NOT one for smulshy hoopy stuff. But I kept imagining a net made of golden light around my womb protecting my little ones and nurturing them. And I kept telling myself that my eggs are ok, my embryos are ok and it's going to be ok.

I also know exactly what you mean about not knowing whether you want friday to come sooner or later. It is such a mixed blessing. On one hand once you know, you know and if its a BFN - you so want to be back to not knowing. Here's praying for a BFP for you! Fingerscrossed for you Sotto.


kar
yes we need a huge miracle!!at the moment is everything is negative in my head and trying very hard to think positive and concentrate.
DH is a bit less calm and collected than the usual...