Thank you for all your responses and support - it really does mean a lot to me.

Today I had blood tests today for various things - anti thyroid, auto-antibody and a few other things which I cannot read on the pathology request. It took about 10 viles of blood to cover all the tests, so I'm really praying something comes of it. As you said Cuddlepie, if they do find something I'm hoping that will lead to a different path so in the end it will be good news.

The tests take about 4-5 days to complete so hopefully I'll be able to think about other things during the week and not stress too much.

Yep, DH and I have to talk but I get so nervous that he'll not want to continue. He does want to be a father but I guess he feels he could find other things to fill the gap where as I don't.