Sorry no personals. Am feeling rather upset, have had a cry and just dont know what to do. I need to vent a little.
So,DH and I travelled bright and early this morning for my first US and 3rd BT. All was ok good with that, just had to wait for my "official" results phone call. Noted at the US that the follicles they did measure were quite small with the largest being approx 10mm .
Anyway, got the call from the nurse. She let me know that she had spoken with my FS who wants to push on with this cycle (gee sounds promising..... not). He has asked that I keep taking the 450IU of Puregon and the 10units Lucrin each day and I need to go back in on Tuesday for a BT but no US this time hmmmmm. Nurse also told me that my Estrogen levels had increased slightly (Tues was 143 and today it was at 360) but still down on where they would really like them to be at. Nurse also told me that my uterus lining is at 6mm so all good there and that I have 9 follies however all were smaller than 10mm She also said that she was waiting for FS to look at my FSH levels from the BT. Not sure what she meant by that but Im sure it didnt matter.
To say im disapointed with those results is an understatement. I have a feeling that were headed down the same path as cycle number 1 and that is cancellation due to poor performance. Im sorry If Im affending anyone but this just isnt fair. Why am I not responding to my Puregon shots. Thats one thing I just need to know is why? Is there something else medically wrong with me that we have missed and I need to have it looked into. Not to mention, If we were to stop IVF and try naturally, what complications would we have then??? I thought IVF was to help, not hinder. Its just not fair.
Havent mentioned to DH yet but am seriously thinking of cancelling and giving up (I know this is only number 2 but can you blame me when it all seems to be tracking in the exact same way. I have even gone for Accupuncture for this session and I am of the opinion at the moment that I dont think it did diddly squat for me). I dont know that I can keep going knowing the information I know from my failed first cycle and what it is im being told now. I feel like I already know where this is headed and Its just not fair at all.
Sorry for the very big me post. I just dont get it at all now. WHY body, Why are you doing this to me!!!!!
Aww Motherhood i am so sorry things are not going to plan but it isn't cancelled yet so hang in there.I feel the same way i thought seeing we have normal fertility and are only doing ivf for genetic reasons i assumed it would be easier for us and to find out that fertile people might not be able to go through ivf is distressing and i also thought about giving up on ivf and trying naturally as i feel the ivf road is more stressful because if we fall pregnant naturally it's one test at 12 weeks to get the all clear but with pgd its if you can start a cycle and then if its not cancelled and if you get enough eggs and then if they fertilise and then if they make it to day 5 and then if they make it through testing and are uneffected and then they have to stick PWEEEEW! no wonder we are stressed with the whole process i have decided we will give pgd ivf one go hopefully (next month) if we cant start or it doesnt work that is it for us our relationship is to important and i can feel the stress and i dont want it to ruin it all i can say is i am praying for you and i hope it all works out.
I am terrified of my first BT in two weeks we need some good news.
Update - Not so Impressed!!
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She also said that she was waiting for FS to look at my FSH levels from the BT. Not sure what she meant by that but Im sure it didnt matter.
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