Aww Motherhood i am so sorry things are not going to plan but it isn't cancelled yet so hang in there.I feel the same way i thought seeing we have normal fertility and are only doing ivf for genetic reasons i assumed it would be easier for us and to find out that fertile people might not be able to go through ivf is distressing and i also thought about giving up on ivf and trying naturally as i feel the ivf road is more stressful because if we fall pregnant naturally it's one test at 12 weeks to get the all clear but with pgd its if you can start a cycle and then if its not cancelled and if you get enough eggs and then if they fertilise and then if they make it to day 5 and then if they make it through testing and are uneffected and then they have to stick PWEEEEW! no wonder we are stressed with the whole process i have decided we will give pgd ivf one go hopefully (next month) if we cant start or it doesnt work that is it for us our relationship is to important and i can feel the stress and i dont want it to ruin it all i can say is i am praying for you and i hope it all works out.
I am terrified of my first BT in two weeks we need some good news.